Nothing New Here

Funny
How the heartbreak, once devastating
Is healed; and seamlessly
As we scuttle from one disaster
To the next
Where once we bemoan Fate's dealt hand
And turn inward, curse ourselves
Our imperfections
Wallow in self pity and blame

"I will never love again!"
That worn out catchphrase,
That cry for attention.
Woe. Oh, woe!
Your life has ended
Will nothing ease this pain?

Dark thoughts
Pits of despair
The bottom of many a bottle
Green eyes, mulish pursing of one's lips
At the happiness of others
While your mind's dagger drags over the whetstone
Plots of vengeance
The sour grapes upon the rotten vine

Until the next rogue, with silken words
And deft fingers
Unlocks the shackles - self imposed, of course -
Of your heart
With promises and attentions
And that charming smile

So unlike the others, who you only remember
From the bitterness of the end
When their hollowness was exposed
And their litany of perfection was naught but lies
Oh how you take the bait on offer
Good fish
Suddenly forgetting the dark moments
And tear stained cheeks
The heart rending, pathetic
"I will never love again!"

Bullshit.

The cycle, started anew
On the same old worn path
With no surprises
Lurches like a trainwreck
In slow motion
But we can't close our eyes, nor turn our heads
When it is played and replayed
Right before us
Ad infinitum

We, well-practiced cynics
Wait for the derailment
With tired patience
Sagacity dulled with boredom

Nothing new here.

Just You and I

Remember that day

How the sun caught your eyes

How sweet the way

Walk the path where our love lies

Forget the night

How the moon hides the truth

Hold what is right

Let love be our proof

We will lie side by side

In this endless heart tide

Without sleeping

Without dreaming

Just you and I...

Heavens apart

We cast shadows in the light

Race back to the start

Don’t let go of me tonight

We will dance through the sky

While the world turns its eye

Without leaving

Without seeing

Just you and I

Now the world I know can be cruel

But if you promise, I will promise too

Promise to be true

If you love me, I will love you

Then we’ll lay side by side

In this endless heart tide

Without sleeping

Without dreaming

Just you and I...

Saved

At first I was scared
Of the beating of my heart
To acknowledge aloud in words
The thoughts crossing my mind
Safe with everything I knew
Hiding away, where I felt safe

And then you came
And my eyes opened
There was light, for the first time
I could really smile

There is no distance now
The miles, inconsequential
Just a smile at a long remembered memory
That's enough to save me

And then...

And in the blink of an eye
Lightning dances along a dark, restless sky
Rain like teardrops cascades to the ground
What was lost can never be found...

...again

Fortunes from some twisted Tarot deck
Connections aligned in circumspect
There is a line in blood drawn in the sand
That cannot be erased by a mere mortal's hand...

...until

So sad, so true
This flower I give to you
See her petals misted with dew
Before she is crushed in the vice of time and
Forgotten

Rivers flowing slowly into a dark boiling sea
Words left unspoken, regretfully
Rage like a tempest, the rising storm
Once more you walk the world... all alone...

...and then...

Hold On

This is where we start
An end, but a new beginning
Brand new, this golden morning
Alive with fresh chances of winning

Hold on
There are blue skies ahead
Life can't be all dismal and grey

Hold on
There is light at the end of the darkness
We both can't be losing our way

Set one foot in front of the other
Let us go forward hand in hand
Don't stop, there is no need to look behind
At our footprints that trail in the sand

Hold on
There are blue skies ahead
Life can't be all dismal and grey

Hold on
There is light at the end of the darkness
We both can't be losing our way

Welcome to my world

I wake up

Get out of bed

Find my mask and put it over my face

Wipe the dishes dry

Brush my teeth

My apathy forces me to lock the door as I leave

I trudge the road

My head is hung

The frost crunches beneath my No Brand shoes

I smile at my colleagues

I bite back retorts

I want to teach the little bastards to dance

My mind is numb

My thoughts are dumb

Each hour passes without a blink

I stare into space

Eight and a half hours

A two pack day and one foot in the grave

Home again

Mask by the door

I sag against the jamb, fall to the floor

Dinner for one

Frozen peas and white sauce

I toast the mirror: prost!

Then to bed

Early to rise

Another day, more lies

Please

Take my heart, now. Take it in love
Hold onto it... tight... so tight
This empty vessel, unfeeling jar
That is the straw, my broken back

Pilot of the four winds
No destination... at a loss
Heartless and void
My weakness, in my strength

No absolution

Don't batter your eyelids
Don't smile
Please
Keep the treasures for me
Don't raise your eyes
Please, you're mine...
Please

Please

Please?

I won't cry
I have been here before
My boots are wanting... wanting
Out the door

Left foot, right foot
A single line
Bag over my shoulder
Another time

I saw you
I heard you...
...whisper his name

When we made love
It wasn't me
You were thinking of

Please

Tell me it's not true

Please

Love me like I love you...

Please

Please

Please?

The final hour
My head is swimming
The thirty second floor
Will I have time
To count the lies
Before I end this fall