<h1>I closed my eyes</h1>

I closed my eyes again

I had dark thoughts again

Wires crossed inside my brain

Why must I feel this pain?

The sky is grey and low

The river runs dark and slow

Should I stay or should I go?

Run from what—I don’t know

                What do I do? What can I say?

                What excuses do you want to hear today?

                I live in doubt, you live without

                I turn my back and you won’t

                Throw me away

                So I lie. Part of me dies.

                And while I make the ends meet, time it flies

                I scream, you shout; what’s it all about?

                We burn the candle at both ends

                And fuck our lives

                                Darkness at the edges

                                Of this still frame, captured

                                Tainted red when eyes shut

                                Clawing, desperation

                                Words unspoken

                                Lies and fancies, thoughts

                               

                                I contemplate what you would think

                                If I was to turn off the light

                                Extinguish the candle

                                Welcome the night        

I closed my eyes again

I had dark thoughts again

Fuses blown inside my brain

Wonder if I am insane?